Rejecting The Alpha Twins (Regan)

Chapter 37 Chapter 37

Regan POV

"Regan, are you there?" A soft knock ruined my contemplation, forcing me to glare at the door, knowing instinctively who I would find on the other side if I were to open it. I knew they would come looking for me eventually and I was surprised it had taken them this long to

come.

I wanted to tell them to leave, to shout at them, scream, and even possibly lash out at them physically, I hall cried endless tears, grieving the loss of my mother as though it had happened new, with all of the fresh information that had come to light. I felt drained. Emotionally and physically drained. I bit my lower lip and then reluctantly crossed the room, reaching out to turn the lock and then opened the door, backing away and wrapping my arms around myself, as I stared at the Alpha twins as they both entered and halted in the very middle of the com. "What do you want?" I whispered, looking away from them and avoiding their eyes.

I had heard of them putting Luna Jennifer in the dungeon, along with my father. I didn't know how to feel about that. Part of me was relieved that they were going to adhere to the laws of the pack, regardless of which pack member it was, but another part of me almost felt sorry for them, that they had to lock away their own mother. I would remember my mother's death and the cause of it, and that sympathy would fade away instantly. Luna Jennifer deserved to be where she was and I hoped that she was learning a valuable lesson about what it was like to be looked upon with contempt and scorn.

"Can we talk?" Xavier speaks softly, his eyes narrowing as he looks me over, no doubt seeing the exhaustion on my face and the redness of my eyes from all the crying.

"What is there to talk about?" I asked, my tone dripping with sarcasmi.

I know what they want to discuss, but part of me hopes they wont bring it up. I'm not that lucky as, Xavier immediately begins to bring up the subject which makes me stiffen.

He sighed. "I know that what my mother did was unforgivable and I'm not here to plead for forgiveness, but we do have to talk Regan, She's currently in the dungeon awaiting sentence

Was that supposed to make me feel better? I rake my gaze over him, my lip curling in resentment.

"Good" I snap, "My mother would still be alive if it wasn't for her

was

"Regan" Xander's voice is tense now as I turn to him "Please, just listen" he pleads.

I grit my teeth and wait. "Your father is also in the dungeon" Xander explains softly.

"I'm not about to lose sleep over it" I muttered, shrugging nonchalantly as though it doesn't matter to me.

The longer he stays in there, the safer I am. He can't hit me or hurt me while he's confined to the cell, but I'm not about to make that clear to them. Something tells me they already know that,

The twins aren't buying my tough guy act though. Xavier just shakes his head at me. "We're anates Regan, I can feel the hurt you're experiencing and the pain. So can Xander. We've tried to give you your space he paused and looked at his brother who was nodding, "but hiding away from everyone An't going to make it go away" he finished tightly.

"What do you propose" I snarled, feeling instantly defensive. "Because right now, I'm having a hard time even looking at you" I added scathingly, even though part of me knew how unfair that was.

They had nothing to do with what their mother had done and I was still using it as an excuse to put distance between us and as a mechanism for lashing out. They knew that too. They could have called me out on it, but they didn't. I felt a little taken aback at how accepting and kind they were treating me as I continued to emotionally assault them.

Xavier moved forward and took my hand, gripping it firmly so at I couldn't yank it out of his grasp. I sucked in a breath as

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I felt the familiar tingles of the mate bond, reluctantly meetings gaze. My body grew warm and I could feel it beginning to tremble as I stood there.

"I can't forgive her" I whispered, past the lump in my throat as the expressions on both their faces went grim. "I know your didn't do it, but she, she's the reason my mother is dead and so much more."

She had been like an Aunt to me and then betrayed me. That hun more than I could hear.

Tears began to trail down my checks as the floodgates opened dare more. I stiffened, embarrassed, but Xander reached over and gently wiped them away with his hand, his eyes softening as he gazed upon me.

"We aren't asking you to forgive her," he said quietly. "That would take too much from anybody, let alone somebody that has suffered as much as you have. We want you to stop hiding in your room" he said, peering into my eyes and cupping my cheek.

"But what about my father, your mother? I don't know if I can stand to.."

"We want you to determine their sentences" Xavier interrupts me and I stare at him blankly, uncomprehending what he's saying before realization dawns and I begin to shake my head adamantly in denial.

They had to be joking. There was no way they could expect such thing from me!

"No, no, no," I said, hastily trying to step backward, "that's too much responsibility. I can't be responsible for your mother's punishment, let alone my father's. You would never forgive me added as they looked at me consideringly. "and as for my father? I can't even stand to gaze at him. I won't go down there to take on that role: You are the Alphas, you should see fit to punish them."

"We aren't the ones whose lives were affected the most by what they did" Xander's voice is cautious, his eyes filled with apology. "Yours was. You were doled out the most trauma, the most pain, the most abuse, because of what happened. It's only right you should have a say in what happens to them. We won't deny you the justice you've been seeking all of these years" he told me, as I stared at him, feeling helpless.

"But you'll hate me" I whispered, feeling

lower lip quiver.

They looked surprised by my admission and I wanted to bite my tongue, feeling stupid.

revenge? The chance to finally take out all my Why did I care! This was what I wanted, wasn't it? The chance to exact my anger and frustration and show my father who was in charge? The chance to lay my mother's spirit to rest once and for all? "No, Regan, we won't. We understand the position you're being put in and what we've asked of you. It's no less than we would offer somebody else, had they been affected too. It's your right as the victim."

Xavier's voice is self-assured. I glance at him uncertainly, but Xander nods his head in agreement, causing me to feel even more overwhelmed. They don't know what they are asking. I have such hatred and resentment building up inside of me and it's begging to be let out. What if I use that to hurt the Luna and my father out of revenge? How could I be expected to concoct a fair and just punishment when my entire body coursed with rage? How could they be so sure that I would do the right thing? We might be mates, but that didn't mean they knew me as well as they wanted to lead me to believe.

"You are giving me too much credit," I said, once again trying to object, Xavier still holding my hand.

"You don't give yourself enough. If you're to become Luna, this will be one of the roles you'll be expected to take on" Xander's voice is cautious, a hopeful twinge to it

"I told you that I didn't want to be Luna." My tone is fierce, but the boys ignore me.

It's almost as though they refuse to believe I won't be mates with them. It's rather infuriating.

"I know you" Xavier's voice is filled with self-confidence "and you don't have a mean bone in your body You have never let yourself become like Isabelle and the others who hurt you and don't think you can be capable of that even now

Xander looked at me and smiled. "I think that you don't trust yourself, but we trust you because we know what kind of heart you have. You have the heart of a Lama, even if you don't want the one. Soon everyone will know that. We're entrusting this task to you" he paused and looked at me meaningfully because you are the only person that we feel can do this fairly You being our mate has nothing to do with it. Not this time" he exhaled.

That made me feel the slightest, tiniest, bit better. But not by much. Ilow was I going to do this?

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